Story:
The tree and the parasites
What happened next:
Merciless Mercy - everything was rising
Not just this lifetime, but all
What doesn't give you permission?
* trauma from multiple lifetimes (overview and trauma not details)
* karma
* roles and identities
* soulmates and agreements and energy cords
* entities, archons, demons
* aspects created to keep things the same
* constructs within the energy body, patterns, controls, AI, blocks
* beliefs and mind control, wetiko
* unprocessed emotions
* self worth
* roles and identities
* physical dis-ease
Example from real life: end agreement, be fought, terror in body, memories, loss of breath, love
Instruction from Bartholomew: You are being abused, take command, you have the authority, love vibration, hold it and watch what happens
Walking through fire: fear, anger, grief, shame, guilt, regret
Insights
Facing what is unloved within/without
What is out of balance out of resonance rises to be brought into resonance
Darkness vs evil (evil vs life and the consciousness of love)
For me - end of a book vs chapter breaks
You are killing what we loved about you
What is love? Then - co-dependent and needy
Now: self sufficient, willing to walk away, allowing and honoring the others journey without changing it, accepting hard truths, seeing what we don't want to see
What is love now?
Self-sufficient, no need
being our own source
Compassion vs other kinds of love
How it is different
How do we get there?
facing dark moon Lilith, what are we afraid of?
for me: abandonment
Evolution is messy
Can feel like war
Do your fight back or do you stand?
What is your clarity?
What is yours (karma, energy, emotions) and what is the others?
I am the Light I am the Love I am the Truth I AM
Growing the light of me to stand with the darkness within and without
Taking complete responsibility
Taking command
Analogy of things grabbing your legs to pull you back down
Love as catalyst revealing all before soothing and transforming
Simple but not easy - The bets of the masters :)
Many nights on the knife edge - summary of 7+ months dark night of the soul
Betting on myself
No help from without
Assistance began to arrive from within
Discovering what is unlimited within me (Story of the lions and star family?)
The divine feminine: Lady of Song, the Mahavidyas, facets of the diamond
The divine masculine: The Shining One, the Lion, facets of the diamond
The bridge (being thrown)
The lady (the traumatized puppy)
Cutting away (shock)
What you think you want is shocking to a conditioned and traumatized body
Small degrees of elevation as you develop capacity
Growing in frequency by transmutation
Needing a guide through the multidimensional realms
The shaman's journey: visions (meeting my shaman during drumming, role as dreamwalker, death walker, teacher and guide)
building a relationship with my gifts (story?)
Conclusion
Receiving invitations from the divine, the Love vibration, doing what one can do before help is given, owning mastery, peeling layers of the onion (process not destination), allowing life to reform around you/dreaming the new dream into reality
The mirror - everything directs you back in to yourself and to your light/shadow
Once our karma is released we are no longer responsible for what happens to others
We are no longer responsible for our other timelines
Where is the compassion in force?
Freedom is given as we give it to others and other parts of ourselves
Forgiveness of self and other
Choosing a new pattern
Allowing the other to choose also
Sometimes no words, when do they actually serve? What can be heard?
Often no resolution, but great clarity and commitment of intent for the future
Gratitude
Honoring the passage, and the people and the experiences
Discovering what you are versus what your costume in the play was
Courage to go beyond
beliefs
past experience, PTSD
conditioning in the body
into the unknown
Coming out of the tunnel and to the front of the boat
The power of "I do not consent"
The evolutionary process described: The medicine wheel: what must be shed (skin that is outgrown), what must die (ego/identity death), what wisdom/joy is reborn, new purpose and action/gifts
Only by the dark walk do you reach the light that is eternal
The great wound reveals the great gift, the most significant treasures are buried in the dark
Sight - covered by conditioning not to see the truth
Magic - covered by the dark sorcerer within/without
Creation - covered by enslavement to old agreements
The purpose of initiation
Vision/dreamwalks, or oracle insights, always lead to experience in reality (see, choose, experience)
How my view of self evolved: what is a healer?
How it felt to be walking between worlds (of world not in it) the gifts and the challenges
The tree and the parasites
What happened next:
Merciless Mercy - everything was rising
Not just this lifetime, but all
What doesn't give you permission?
* trauma from multiple lifetimes (overview and trauma not details)
* karma
* roles and identities
* soulmates and agreements and energy cords
* entities, archons, demons
* aspects created to keep things the same
* constructs within the energy body, patterns, controls, AI, blocks
* beliefs and mind control, wetiko
* unprocessed emotions
* self worth
* roles and identities
* physical dis-ease
Example from real life: end agreement, be fought, terror in body, memories, loss of breath, love
Instruction from Bartholomew: You are being abused, take command, you have the authority, love vibration, hold it and watch what happens
Walking through fire: fear, anger, grief, shame, guilt, regret
Insights
Facing what is unloved within/without
What is out of balance out of resonance rises to be brought into resonance
Darkness vs evil (evil vs life and the consciousness of love)
For me - end of a book vs chapter breaks
You are killing what we loved about you
What is love? Then - co-dependent and needy
Now: self sufficient, willing to walk away, allowing and honoring the others journey without changing it, accepting hard truths, seeing what we don't want to see
What is love now?
Self-sufficient, no need
being our own source
Compassion vs other kinds of love
How it is different
How do we get there?
facing dark moon Lilith, what are we afraid of?
for me: abandonment
Evolution is messy
Can feel like war
Do your fight back or do you stand?
What is your clarity?
What is yours (karma, energy, emotions) and what is the others?
I am the Light I am the Love I am the Truth I AM
Growing the light of me to stand with the darkness within and without
Taking complete responsibility
Taking command
Analogy of things grabbing your legs to pull you back down
Love as catalyst revealing all before soothing and transforming
Simple but not easy - The bets of the masters :)
Many nights on the knife edge - summary of 7+ months dark night of the soul
Betting on myself
No help from without
Assistance began to arrive from within
Discovering what is unlimited within me (Story of the lions and star family?)
The divine feminine: Lady of Song, the Mahavidyas, facets of the diamond
The divine masculine: The Shining One, the Lion, facets of the diamond
The bridge (being thrown)
The lady (the traumatized puppy)
Cutting away (shock)
What you think you want is shocking to a conditioned and traumatized body
Small degrees of elevation as you develop capacity
Growing in frequency by transmutation
Needing a guide through the multidimensional realms
The shaman's journey: visions (meeting my shaman during drumming, role as dreamwalker, death walker, teacher and guide)
building a relationship with my gifts (story?)
Conclusion
Receiving invitations from the divine, the Love vibration, doing what one can do before help is given, owning mastery, peeling layers of the onion (process not destination), allowing life to reform around you/dreaming the new dream into reality
The mirror - everything directs you back in to yourself and to your light/shadow
Once our karma is released we are no longer responsible for what happens to others
We are no longer responsible for our other timelines
Where is the compassion in force?
Freedom is given as we give it to others and other parts of ourselves
Forgiveness of self and other
Choosing a new pattern
Allowing the other to choose also
Sometimes no words, when do they actually serve? What can be heard?
Often no resolution, but great clarity and commitment of intent for the future
Gratitude
Honoring the passage, and the people and the experiences
Discovering what you are versus what your costume in the play was
Courage to go beyond
beliefs
past experience, PTSD
conditioning in the body
into the unknown
Coming out of the tunnel and to the front of the boat
The power of "I do not consent"
The evolutionary process described: The medicine wheel: what must be shed (skin that is outgrown), what must die (ego/identity death), what wisdom/joy is reborn, new purpose and action/gifts
Only by the dark walk do you reach the light that is eternal
The great wound reveals the great gift, the most significant treasures are buried in the dark
Sight - covered by conditioning not to see the truth
Magic - covered by the dark sorcerer within/without
Creation - covered by enslavement to old agreements
The purpose of initiation
Vision/dreamwalks, or oracle insights, always lead to experience in reality (see, choose, experience)
How my view of self evolved: what is a healer?
How it felt to be walking between worlds (of world not in it) the gifts and the challenges
Portal Perspective - Fear is the absence of love. Love without opposite is the ultimate truth and everything rises to be witnessed by this love.
Key to success - Love transmutes fear and all illusion of separation because everything seeks to be loved unconditionally.
Key to success - Love transmutes fear and all illusion of separation because everything seeks to be loved unconditionally.