At the core of most of my stories was the belief that I am not worthy of goodness. Its sneaky little voice would come in when I was distracted and hint that I once did something terrible and am destined to repeat my miserable mistakes over and over forever. This is a subtle voice, mind you. It would come in quietly and build so that I would not even realize what was happening until it was running my mind. It never came right out and said I did not deserve grace. It implied it until I would project my guilt out into future potentials of loss, grief, fear, anger, or shame. This little voice was a master gaslighter. It knew just how to make me feel separate and at risk.
The Native Americans call this possession by Wetiko1. Wetiko is defined as a cannabalistic spirit that has become a predatory monster. It overtakes the mind of humans who have a prpensity for excess, and they then unwittingly begin to consume the life force of others.
1 Levy, Paul “Dispelling Wetiko: Breaking the Curse of Evil” Quest Magazine 102.4 (Fall 2014) pp 146-151.
The Native Americans call this possession by Wetiko1. Wetiko is defined as a cannabalistic spirit that has become a predatory monster. It overtakes the mind of humans who have a prpensity for excess, and they then unwittingly begin to consume the life force of others.
1 Levy, Paul “Dispelling Wetiko: Breaking the Curse of Evil” Quest Magazine 102.4 (Fall 2014) pp 146-151.